Lalang

It seems that lalang have started to grow here. Hehehe. Subur2. Yer cik ira, finally i'm updating this page.

Hurm...it's been nearly two weeks since my last post. Firstly, Ahlan wahsalan ya Ramadhan (it's sort bit late..i know..). It was good to be at home for the first week of Ramadhan despite of not having mom's cooking for buka puasa. Tapi xpelaa, asalkan dapat berbuka dgn my dearest mama.huhu

I decided to stay for a little while in utp this month. Why? Need to put myself together for the project. Sometimes i wonder, can i survive and how?? But each time when these doubts come, there will always be something that will make me feel "....ooo, these are just some difficulties that i have to deal with, take them easily & wisely, with His help, everything will be fine..."

For some reasons, i suddenly felt strange. Few days before leaving home for utp, almost everyone at home were behaving as if i wont be coming back home anymore. On the last day of me breaking fast at home, my mom prepared the food although she's not feeling that well. My sis pula surprisingly asked bout my trip (what time im leaving, how long i'll be there, when i'm coming home). She even went late for work on the day that i was leaving to utp. Hurm...tak pernah kakak buat macam tu. And both of my nieces,especially Mirah, she's feeling a bit upset. I just promised them that i would call home often. Bapak, err...he's cool =) heheh

Suddenly Some tiny parts of my brain is telling me to go home during this weekend but im not going to. hehehe. Next week perhaps. This week, i just stay quietly and peacefully here. Trying my best to devote myself to the project (hahaha poyo~)

We're already in the second week of Ramadhan. My comments?...I don't feel as excited as previous years when i used to start listening to the Raya songs. This year, the baju raya, the kuih raya, etc, don't really matter anymore. Am i becoming heartless with raya now? (I hope not because it's gonna be double celebrations for me this year...eh silap triple actually...). Maybe because i'm still away in utp. Perhaps when i'm back home, i should be in the mood.

Senario setiap tahun, baru je seminggu puasa, pasaraya dah mula pasang lagu2 raya...haiishhh...tak sabar2

Esok nak jumpa lecturer, i'm looking for some sense of directions