On My Way Back Home

These pic have gotten nothing to do with any posts here, i just simply want to share them. And from time to time, i would like to share some of my pics taken with my new toy. hehe..

The 'moving object mode'

What can you see?

Bad Vs Good

Ooo my....ooo my... wooww....i'm not sure if i'm really into this blogging thingy or not. Whenever I have the time, i'll post something.

Okay this time, there's something that has driven myself to come up with this post. As adult, we should know how to differentiate between the good things and the bad ones. But humans generally are weak especially when the devils constantly influence our minds.

After seeing things happening recently, i have come to a conclusion that....people still do the bad things and they just dont bother of anything. uurrghh...that's selfish right?? However, bad things give pleasures. No doubt on that. It gives the excitement. To some people, doing bad things is similar to taking up challenges...

I hope that i can always see the line that separates the good and the bad..... Always think wisely & clearly.

Seminggu Sudey Berlalu

Selamat Hari Raya. Maap Zahir & Batin

It was just exactly a week ago, i was celebrating both my birthday and 1st day of Syawal. The feeling was...biasa je. Surprisingly kan. Since i was like so-cant-wait for the day to come...then when finally the day came, i was like...ok it's raya & my birthday..then..what's next? hurm~ but the best part was the raya eve tuhbe able to celebrate bapak's birthday and mine plus welcoming the 1st of Syawal. And then...puas i jelouskan my nieces and cousins.hahaha. Semua x puas hati, i could celebrate both at the same time. Cool~ Then they pretended as if the day was nothing special other than raya. hahah..but in the end, they came up to me and presented me gift. so sweett...x sangka pon derang nak bg :) thanks irah, iqah & adib..huhu

This year, the house in JB was not as packed as last year's. Some cousins celebrated raya with their in-laws. On the first day of raya, for the first time, no one visited the kubur of both arwah tok songkok and tok siput ( yup, we did call them with those names...ehhehe). The reason being was...ohh hujan, lecak2 nanti. So..oh..ok...just stay at home....get my hands dirty in the kitchen. So, we planed to go on the second day then.

We had photography session. Then in the afternoon, we started visiting some of our relatives in bandar uda. By the night, i pengsan. Penat...x tahan. Mana x nyer, i hardly rest since the day before raya.

Second day, again....busy in the kitchen. Need to do some preparation for BBQ. i was really looking foward for the nite. My uncle had brought lots of seafood. nyyuummmyy... but the not so nice part was, i had to marinate them..mostly myself.imagine with the food for nearly 50 mulut org..addoi. SInce, some of them were allergic to seafood...darrn~ So sape lagi laa nak buat if not me and my uncle. The BBQ went well. Ada seafood, ada kambing....huhuhu...makan x hengat ok~

Third day, not so much of cooking anymore. We went to visit other relatives then we ate outside. Oh baik nyer cousin ku blanja. Nak merasa i belanja, tunggu bonus tahun depan yer! huhuhu. Once back home, i had started packing to go back to Shah Alam. Alahai kejap je cuti...didnt even feel like 1 week.

Generally, i felt this year...biasa je.Best sebab cuti and It was bit special because of my father's and my birthday. Other than that...hurm..ntah. Feel like something's missing but i dont know what it is.Whatever it is, i still feel thankful and glad that i can celebrate raya with those loved ones.That's what matter the most to me especially masa raya.

Sahur

It spoils the whole mood of the day.

"Kalo kena tuka baju di bilik atas, nak tido hotel kali ni...."

Why do you have to bring up this topic while others are peacefully enjoying their meal during sahur...ish3... *heartless*

uurrghhh...it did really get me pissed off~

next time, if everyhting doesn't make sense anymore, might as well as x perlu balik kampung at all...urrghhh...mencciiiiii~~~~

Superwomen - A dedication to All Beloved Women Out There~

I just listened to this song recently....and this song goes to all women out there especially to my beloved and dearest Mama & Kakak =)

Everywhere I'm turning
Nothing seems complete
I stand up and I'm searching
For the better part of me
I hang my head from sorrow
State of humanity
I wear it on my shoulders
Gotta find the strength in me

Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am, Yes she is
Even when I'm a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes I'm a Superwoman

For all the mothers fighting
For better days to come
And all my women, all my women sitting here trying
To come home before the sun
And all my sisters
Coming together
Say yes I will
Yes I can

Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am, Yes she is
Even when I'm a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes I'm a Superwoman

When I'm breaking down
And I can't be found
And I start to get weak
Cause no one knows
Me underneath these clothes
But I can fly, We can fly, Oh

Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am, Yes she is
Even when I'm a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes I'm a Superwoman

by Alicia Keys

A great song huhuhu

Kecurian

Recently in the news, there was a lady murdered in a robbery at her OWN house. These days, people will just do anything to survive. How sooo desperate they are....Just imagine, we are now in the good month of Ramadhan and there are people who don't respect it. They just ignore others and do whatever it takes as long as they can get whatever they want. Eiiisshhh~ Where's the love? Where's the peace? Very scaryy...There's no more safe place on earth :(

Seksyen 13 ok....dekattt ~ Sape laa yg syaittoonn sekarang ni. Hurm...

Another Lalang

I'm going back home this evening. Nggeengg~ Seriously, i feel like lalang. It's not because i'm lost to the tempation, but due to some last minute changes.

:: Home mode ::

Lalang

It seems that lalang have started to grow here. Hehehe. Subur2. Yer cik ira, finally i'm updating this page.

Hurm...it's been nearly two weeks since my last post. Firstly, Ahlan wahsalan ya Ramadhan (it's sort bit late..i know..). It was good to be at home for the first week of Ramadhan despite of not having mom's cooking for buka puasa. Tapi xpelaa, asalkan dapat berbuka dgn my dearest mama.huhu

I decided to stay for a little while in utp this month. Why? Need to put myself together for the project. Sometimes i wonder, can i survive and how?? But each time when these doubts come, there will always be something that will make me feel "....ooo, these are just some difficulties that i have to deal with, take them easily & wisely, with His help, everything will be fine..."

For some reasons, i suddenly felt strange. Few days before leaving home for utp, almost everyone at home were behaving as if i wont be coming back home anymore. On the last day of me breaking fast at home, my mom prepared the food although she's not feeling that well. My sis pula surprisingly asked bout my trip (what time im leaving, how long i'll be there, when i'm coming home). She even went late for work on the day that i was leaving to utp. Hurm...tak pernah kakak buat macam tu. And both of my nieces,especially Mirah, she's feeling a bit upset. I just promised them that i would call home often. Bapak, err...he's cool =) heheh

Suddenly Some tiny parts of my brain is telling me to go home during this weekend but im not going to. hehehe. Next week perhaps. This week, i just stay quietly and peacefully here. Trying my best to devote myself to the project (hahaha poyo~)

We're already in the second week of Ramadhan. My comments?...I don't feel as excited as previous years when i used to start listening to the Raya songs. This year, the baju raya, the kuih raya, etc, don't really matter anymore. Am i becoming heartless with raya now? (I hope not because it's gonna be double celebrations for me this year...eh silap triple actually...). Maybe because i'm still away in utp. Perhaps when i'm back home, i should be in the mood.

Senario setiap tahun, baru je seminggu puasa, pasaraya dah mula pasang lagu2 raya...haiishhh...tak sabar2

Esok nak jumpa lecturer, i'm looking for some sense of directions

Mix Combo

Another great weekend i had. It was good to see juniors celebrating their graduation, significant milestone in their life journey. It reminds me...just a year ago, i went thru the same thing as well. Now..here i am, i have been working about a year. Still i feel like, i just started working yesterday...

Once im back home, i was shocked by some bad news. Two different families of our close friends and our relatives are in the middle of family crisis- critical one. This makes me think, will there still be 'happily ever after'??

Takot + worry + Angry. That's the mix combo. When there's a problem occurred. Dont pinpoint anyone. Listen to all the parties involved. Dont be biased. Dont be judgemental. Just suggest what are the consequences of each of the possible solutions. Let they themselves solve their own problems.

Today, im happy because im going to start another new chapter of my life. Huhuhu. Lepas ni focus! focus! and mooore focus!!

Ya Allah, permudahkan laluan hambaMu ini utk mencapai kesenangan di kemudian hari. Amiinn~

Midnight

Yes, the clock shows...1.27am and i'm still not sleeping. Just got back home from my aunt's place.CHecked out her new house. It's nice & cozy. Maybe next time i will overnight at their place.

Tomorrow, errm...i guess i should say today's agenda. To Batu Pahat. We'll leave at 10am. Time for heading back home...not sure. I'm sure that today will be the starting of an exciting weekend.


Feels good & free to be able to do things that i wish to do..*what does that suppose to mean?*

Can't (addoi...it's soo negative aura)

Can't imagine.......how a person can be so easiliy influenced by others without having to defend his or her own decision.

Can't believe.......I can still be patient with such a person...maybe there's a good reason behind which only HE knows.

Can't understand.......I let myself into a complex situation. I'm not hoping for anything. Not that i really want to or another word is desperate. But for some reason (which im still figuring out..) i just let it be. But is it worth doing it? Especially when the chances of getting hurt is about 80% in the end.huurmm... as i said let it be..we'll see how things go..

Have i changed myself to become a new me??

What a GGGREAATTT Weekend

Weekend has ended. And another one is coming, time really flies that fast huh. How i wish that everyday is like weekend (then it's no longer called as weekEND) hehe.

One of my closest friends just ended her bachelor life. I attended her wedding reception. It was a great opportunity to meet up some of my friends from high school. huuuuhhh..some who i haven't met for like what...4-5 years ago..??!!?

One thing i notice, people change. Dont always assume they will always be the same as they did before. Time passes by, zaman dah berubah dunia dah maju (do i get this correctly??heheh) manusia mestilah berubah...rite :) And of course...change for the better

Anyway, back to the reception, OMG...the both bride & groom look fabulous and no doubt they look happy & great together. Merpati dua sejoli (hope got this rite..again..) Congratulation!!! Most of our friends, didnt expect that she would be the early one to settle down. Anyway, we mankind can always plan, but it is always for HIM to decide what's best for us.

Apart from attending the kenduri, I had the chance to fulfill my crave for penang’s famous sup hameed. nyummy2..miss it so much. The sup, murtabak,…(thought of having mee goreng mamak as well, but I had quite a big meal earlier..some sushi..hihihi). Had my supper with couple of my friends. Thanks girls!!! I really ate a lot that day...ffuuuhh

After the reception, i headed straight to the airport. Thanks to the host & family for the stay, makan2, bring me to places..and everything. As i reached home, i wondered to myself.....i wish i would have stay there bit longer.


~Miss Penang...and *down* Monday..back to work..~

Weekend is Almost Over

I always feel that time flies soooo fast. Am I the only one who feel that way? Starting from today, my schedule is going to be packed.Today, traveling to Tronoh. Monday, I’m having a software training, then I have to travel to Seberang Prai right after the training. Tuesday & Wednesday, I’m having workshop at Kulim Hi-Tech park. Addeii…very tiring but worth it *smile* especially for the future..*chheewahh*

Today, as I came back to my little spot in Tronoh, I met my new roommate. She’s nice and friendly. It is always difficult for me to get along with someone else especially to become roommates. But this time, I feel glad that I have company in my room. Maybe I do really feel lonely during my stay here all this while. (Don’t want to admit that fact previously…)

Then, another thing that surprises me today - I met my friend (which I could not recall her name..heheh…and so does her..hahah) at the house which I’m staying in. She’s got herself here, pursuing her Masters degree. Yeaayy, I’m happy to find out that I won’t be completely alone after all.

During my whole trip from home to here, I kept calling my mom to update her. Some people would say…it’s overprotective but to me, I’m very thankful and feeling luckly to have someone that really cares and concerns so much on me. I couldn’t imagine my life without her. She’s not only a mother but also my very best friend in my life. Mama, don’t worry, I’ll be back home soon.huhu. It feels like going back as a student. Tronoh, here I come.. *smile*


~Back to the little outside world of Tronoh~

Unpredictable

Life’s unpredictable. Imagine this in the very same month. You can be very extremely happy at one time then another minute you never know that things become the other way round.

Was I too rush in making decisions? Did I judge people too fast? Was I ridiculous to give my heart out (not completely though) to someone who I just met for couple of months?

All I have to say for now is, I never regret for what ever decisions I have made so far because good things don’t simply come easily. We always have to go thru difficulties before gaining something good in the end. When things are not easily to get, only then we appreciate them.

I believe everything happens with many good reasons behind. They are all for Him to know and for us to find out.... *smile*

....and now just focus on work, work & work


*Oh Allah, please give me strength to go thru this test. Ammiin*

The 1st

New to this. Couple of my darling friends have asked me to blogging, but i always refuse. Dunno why this time, out of the sudden i just feel like writing. On second thoughts, eem why not right, at least i can express my feelings & thoughts here.

Welcome to my blog.